yes im a tv bum...and yes i watch series' such as one tree hill with unfathomed hunger...but while watching a rerun awhile ago i came upon the saying "gaining one's hearts desire is tragic..." and i agree with what one of the characters said: if gaining my heart's desire is tragic then give me tragedy..
i think that one can only hope to ever attain his/her true hearts desire...and if you have the chance to attain it even for an inkling of a moment in your life than you should clasp on to it as tightly as you can....if tragedy occurs right after that moment..well then atleast you can say that even for just a moment you were truly happy...and that's far more than what most people can claim to have achieved in their life...
as for me well, i don't know how i feel about anything anymore...love? life? dreams? don't ask me. i don't know. i just don't know anymore.
written by wishing for clarity at 08:52 pm
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the moment i reached home i jumped into my bed and just sank into its warm, soft goodness trying to absorb it all in. After sleeping in a sofa for 2 weeks, my bed seemed nothing short of heaven.
im so excited to see my friends on monday. i cant wait. who would have thought i'd miss school?
it feels great to be able to understand all the people around you, to be able to walk around the house in shorts and not get told by your grandma that you are HARAM (indecent, unacceptable, etc.), to be able to go out and not be concious of the people around you, and most especially it feels great to be back in a society where men and women are equal.
i repeat. IT SURE IS GOOD TO BE HOME..=)
written by wishing for clarity at 12:21 am
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haaaaaaay.....
okey now that that's out let me begin where i left off..:
Jan 2: first and foremost a very big HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to my very good friend Carmela Sioco. Caaaaammmms!!! miss na kita xet!! ampi days to come i promise!! i wish i could have been there for your stuff-your-face-with-food-party at ru's house! di bale bawi ako sa susunod!
another reason why i did not blog on the night of the 2nd is that i had my hair curled (i can just hear my friends screaming "AGAIN??" ) but then again since this was an arabic parlor it was very far from what i had expected!not to meantion the fact that since i went to the parlor at 8pm my hair didn't curl by closing time so my mom had to finish it off here at home! hahaha. my hair looks totally different. I wont expound para surprise nalang pag uwi ko and since i dont have way to upload the pics,ill show hair on a later date. as if anyone is interested,but still..my blog,my hair,my wish. hahahaha.=)
Jan. 3. i slept until laaaateee in the afternoon as usual, and when i woke up my dad told us that he was taking us to a newly opened mall called "The Mall of Emirates" where you can, get this, play in the snow,ski and snowboard! yes,one can now play in the snow in the middle of the desert thanks to modern technology. so it takes us about an hour to reach since its pretty far and when we get there it takes us another 15mins to figure out our way into the parking since their basement is practically a maze! hahaha. anyways we get inside and our jaws(my mom and i) practically drop to the floor. let me stress the point that this mall is a SHOPPERS HAVEN! you can find practically any fashion piece you want and the stores are endless! the mall is even bigger than megamall! but despite our great shopping desires, my dad pulled us to the ski area cuz in his words "that's what we came to do!".
we reach the ski area seperated from the rest of the mall by glass and i simply stare in amazement. it was actual real freezing cold snow. there were actually people skiing down a slope. INSIDE A MALL. after oggling at the sights for a while we go inside ,pay for our tickets and put on special pants,boots and jackets. and then the gate to the snow park opened and.....I was`blasted with the coldest air i have ever felt. it was colder than death inside and i am not exaggerating. due to lack of knowledge, we had not bought gloves and found that that was a VERY BAD IDEA. my fingers froze up in minutes and they really hurt! but other than that,the rest was fun,we threw snow at each other and sled down the slopes and had a great time (excluding the fact that i was practically a popsicle!). i even went inside an igloo! hahahaha! ang cute talaga.
and then i realized i had done a very dumb thing.
I FORGOT THE DIGICAM.
anak ng pating ng tokwa. Aaaarghhhh. my dad wanted to strangle me! i wanted to stranggle myself! being the vain person that i am,it was such a beautiful place to take pictures! of all the days to forget the cam! hmmph!
oh well...my flight's this sat and im excited to go back to my friends and the warm weather cuz it's getting colder and colder here every day!
well until than i'll just make the most out of my extended vacation and keep communicationg with my granparents in sign language due to the language barrier. =)
written by wishing for clarity at 01:03 pm
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so we found seats and my grandparents being old(duh?) didn't like the atmosphere because 1)they were freezing 2)people around them were drinking and 3)people were dancing to a modern beach which i can imagine them not being used to coming from a place like iraq.
to be honest i really didn't enjoy much because i didnt have anyone to talk to who i could relate with or who was near my age. my brother was having loads of fun since we had come with our family friends and they had 5 kids ALL my brothers age. my mom and dad had the kids' parents and 2 more adults to laught,talk,drink,and dance with. my grandparents atleast had themselves. i on the other hand never thought i'd feel so lonely on new years eve, a bit depressing actually. I have never missed my friends so much in my entire life. seriously what i wouldnt have done to have just 1 friend with me last night but that's life i guess. cant always have what i want.
the only highlight of last night was the girl who belly danced,seriously belly danced. i cant post the pics at the moment cuz the pc im using right now does not have any viable way to upload them so next blog nalang. eventually when the count down started i atleast smiled at the prospect 5-4-3 of 2-1 JUMPING!!!! yes i jumped! with very high hopes of getting taller. hey a girl with vertical difficulties will try anything once. hahaha.
with the way the evening was going it was no wonder that i jumped at the chance of going home at around12:30 since my dad had to take my grandparents home,lest they die of hypothermia. yes i know. hoing home at 12:30. very lame. but i was cold and bored and had no reason to stay.
fortunately though, i guess the gods did not want me to start the year of in a depressed note so when we reached home, my dad asked me if i wanted to go to a house party of a family friend in which i actually knew their daughter. of course i agreed. when we got there, lo and behold. what do i find? a tent full of teenagers dancing to all the hits we dance to back in the phil. gasolina,pon de replay, i like that,gold digger. yes,everything. i think i almost heard the angels going "halleluiah" hahaha. well i found my friend and she had shrunk. i mean she had beome incredibly sexy! making me even more concious of the pounds refusing to get off my body.i was a little shy at first since i didn't know any one but after a little while and a bit of coaxing i started dancing and had fun. get this. i actually danced with a guy in front of my DAD. miracle anyone? woah.
around 3:30am when the party had died down my dad suggested we head back home since my mom was on her way back as well from the resort so i agreed and said bye to my new friends. on the way home i found out that my dad was utterly shocked that i could dance because 1) he hardly had any sense of rythm and 2)he had never seen me dance before. i told him i got it from mom. it felt nice to talk to my dad without being scared of his reactions. he's been getting better at handling situations and im proud of him for letting me enjoy a bit cuz i know he felt bad when he saw me alone in the resort. when we reached home it took all the strength i had to wash my face and change my clothes after which i totally dunked into the sofa where i slept like a log and have now woken up at 4:10 in the afternoon. hahaha.
if last night was the indication of how my year is going to be then i can't quite decipher it out yet. when i do,i'll inform you. chao for now and HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN EVERYONE!=)
written by wishing for clarity at 05:12 pm
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in the words of mario "baby hear i go again". yet another blog with yet another first entry. i may love to write but somehow when it comes to blogging im always attacked by the tamadisitis case. hahaha. oh well i guess ill give it another go but im not giving out any guarantees. and as for those of you who know me well i can already see you betting i stop blogging in a few weeks and you most probably are righjt but for now i guess i'll just type away.=)
i take whatsoever no credit in the making of this site other than begging my friend to fix it up for me and choosing a layout. the rest was all ia doing kaya eeyah tuts, thank you! mahal talaga kita! mwaah!=)
by the way:
Happy New Year everyone!!!
i wonder what the new year will bring? right now im in a state of uncertainty which hopefully will be erased with the new year.
i miss my friends and i miss the warmth of the people back in the philippines, Dubai might be very clean and advanced but i lacks a touch of friendliness and warmth in their people. oh well,if it helps my future and besides its only for a year and a half. *good yasmin keep telling yourself that* hahaha. talking to myself in my own blog now, a new level of insanity i have attained but then again when have i ever been normal?
anyways...were going to some hotel, which my dad didnt quite clearly explain to me, later. he said that their will be belly dancing and partying and of course FOOD! hahaha. one of my favorite things in life hence the figure which never becomes thin. but im more looking forward to tomorrow since were going to the desert for a safari which includes camel riding,motor bikes,belly dancing again,etc. Probably the biggest factor on to why i like it so much is that it's at night and under the big star filled night sky. haaay...=)
that's it for now....enjoy the night everyone,careful with the fireworks!=)
written by wishing for clarity at 07:27 pm
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Photograph by Nickelback
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head
And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneakin' out
And this is where I went to school
Most of the time I had better things to do
Criminal records says I've broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times
I wonder if it's too late
Should I go back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in
Oh oh oh oh god I....I
Every memory of looking out the back door
I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops seeing us hanging out
They said somebody went and burned it down
We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when
Oh oh oh oh god I...I
Every memory of looking out the back door
I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase it
you can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
So hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change......
Every memory of looking out the back door
I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its hard to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me......
written by wishing for clarity at 04:21 pm
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